Getting to the point where you actually let someone in and expose a piece of your precious, unique heart is a big step for one who tends to not let anyone see who really lies beneath the surface. If you don't choose to let people in, you aren't really going to experience a true connection with the recipient. And chances are, the whole existence of the companionship won't be as rewarding. There are numerous shared whereabouts and moments that will impact you in such a way it will save your day. Or your week, if you are feeling alone. The environment we live in is pretty good at making life be as difficult as possible.
So I'll catch myself wondering if my relationships are fulfilling... how much importance are they adding to my life... Is this person worth it? What am I getting out of it? Because so many times I don't receive as much as I put in. Now, it's common to feel like you are putting more in than the person on the other side is, but there comes a time when you need to begin to distance yourself if that becomes the norm. Evaluating the entity of the relationship is the way to protect yourself from being wounded. For instance, a friend who likes to only call you up when they need a ride to work because their car was stolen... And their paycheck is depending on you to follow through with their last minute favor....Vroom vroom. *I'm such a good friend. This is really happening at 5:30 a.m.*
Close the door on it because your self-worth is more important. Don't be used. It's exhausting to always be putting in the effort. Especially with family members because you can easily feel obligated. Blood can be thicker than water and sometimes you are that rock for someone who needs a shining light in their life. And it's harder to separate yourself from the unhealthy relationships when it's a family member. It takes a lot of rationalizing and several evaluations, but at the end of the day, it's in your hands. All of it. You know what is best for yourself, and self-worth and health are at the top of that list. Choosing to slowly separate yourself from people who make you feel like lesser of a person need to be at a distance. You are in control of your life and you don't have the time to be being held up all of the time when your trying to achieve your dreams. You are capable of being in healthy relationships. As many as you would like. Whether it's numerous friends you can rely on and you know they are real, or you may just have a hand full of close friends. Maybe a mixture of both. What's cool is It's in your hands. All of it.
